What to do?

What does God want for me? How do I know? Is He speaking?

That's what on my mind. Right this minute. And it's all because somebody said something to me on Facebook.
Good questions.

Here's the low down on a snippet of life recently:

There's this Bible Study for Mama's (or any lady) that I would LOVE to lead. I put out a little "feeler" to gauge interest. I was planning to begin the study with a small group this summer. BUT!!!
Then I remembered to pray. Hard. And seek my husbands counsel. And the answer I was getting was something to the effect of, "you can if you want to but you ought not to. Look at what is being neglected." And I look around and see my home and discover that first things MUST come first.

So I posted on Facebook:
As much as I would LOVE to do the Gatekeepers of Our Home Study with a bunch of ladies, I've been convinced/convicted that my focus right now needs to be on my OWN home. (and not everyones)
As much as I want to pour into others, my first priority MUST be to my own family. (I still LOVE yours and am only a phone call away)
As much as we all LOVE to be with other, like-minded families to learn and fellowship (especially fellowship) I just can not commit more time away from my home. (still have plans to fellowship and play - often)
As much as I want to do this one more thing, I need to "be still" (which looks nothing like "still") and allow God to continue to prepare my mind and heart for the service(s) He's already called me to. (like God's child, wife, mom, and FCRTL & CBS)
All that to say that I don't always get what I want (and I really want it) but in obedience to my Father (and my husband) I'll focus on what He's already made me for. (And think about this study again later - way later).

That post got "liked" right away. And encouraging comments showed below. Then my sweet sister-in-love posted a comment and reminded me of me. So, this is my comment back to her.

Hey Sister,
I love you.
We are all pulled in so many directions. As wives and mothers and daughters and sisters and all the other hats we wear. Learning to say "no", or "not right now" is HARD! Saying "yes" to the right things can be just as hard. It's a battle of our will. Life is NOT easy. It's HARD! The Bible confirms to us that we are NOT promised easy.
But He will make our paths straight. What are you doing to "listen" to God?
Are you disciplining yourself to daily spend time with Him in prayer - praise, thanks, seeking His strength? 
Are you disciplining yourself to  daily spend time reading/studying His Word - His love letter to YOU - EVERY DAY? (His Word is how He "speaks" to us. Just as I am communicating to you now through the written word - but I make mistakes - He brings understanding and wisdom).
Are you meditating/thinking about His Words during the day? 
Are you truly seeking Godly counsel? Are you shunning false teachers? 
Are you currently attempting to 'train up" my sweet nephew 'in the nurture and admonition of the Lord?" 
Are you an encouragement to Daniel as the leader of your family? Are you praying for your husband? 
Or are you, like many mothers (like I was and still am on too many days), just trying to make it through each day? In your own strength? Missing out and overlooking daily blessings, provisions, help, answers? 
Remember, IF you have believed Jesus as your Savior, as the Lord of your life,  He has given you the Holy Spirit to lead guide and direct you in all things. Submit to Him.
Do what you know you should do and the works of the flesh will slowly become the fruits of the Spirit - and you'll realize one day that God is still in the business of miracles - cause you are one. 
You are His incredible creation and He has a perfect plan for you.
Get in the Word! And the Word will get in You!

The Lost Sheep by Alfred Soord

P.S.
Here are some verses (that I can remember) that came to mind as I was writing - in no particular order. (And that I do NOT have memorized but looked up on BibleGateway.com - English Standard Version)
I'm sure you'll think of others.

If you love me, you will keep my commandments. 

John 14:15

If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, 

we lie and do not practice the truth. 

But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, 

and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 

If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 

1 John 1:6-8

If anyone's will is to do God's will, 

he will know whether the teaching is from God 

or whether I am speaking on my own authority. 

The one who speaks on his own authority seeks his own glory; 

but the one who seeks the glory of him who sent him is true, 

and in him there is no falsehood. 

John 7:17-18

But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 

For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, 

and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, 

for these are opposed to each other, 

to keep you from doing the things you want to do. 

But if you are led by the Spirit,you are not under the law. 

Now the works of the flesh are evident: 

sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, 

fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, 

and things like these. 

I warn you, as I warned you before, 

that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 

But the fruit of the Spirit is 

love, joy, peace, patience,kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control;

against such things there is no law. 

And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit. 

Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another. 

Galatians 5:16-26

Only be strong and very courageous, 

being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you. 

Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, 

that you may have good success wherever you go. 

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, 

but you shall meditate on it day and night, 

so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. 

For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. 

Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, 

for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. 

Joshua 1:7-9

See what kind of love the Father has given to us, 

that we should be called children of God; 

and so we are. 

The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 

Beloved, we are God's children now,

 and what we will be has not yet appeared; 

but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, 

because we shall see him as he is. 

1 John 3:1-2

“Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, 

so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves.

 Beware of men, for they will deliver you over to courts 

and flog you in their synagogues,  

and you will be dragged before governors and kings for my sake, 

to bear witness before them and the Gentiles. 

When they deliver you over, do not be anxious how you are to speak 

or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour. 

For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. 

Brother will deliver brother over to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death, 

and you will be hated by all for my name's sake. 

But the one who endures to the end will be saved. 

When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next, 

for truly, I say to you, 

you will not have gone through all the towns of Israel before the Son of Man comes.

“A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. 

It is enough for the disciple to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. 

If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, 

how much more will they malign those of his household. 

Matthew 10:16-25

As a side note - for further study:

• Get some paper and keep it with your Bible and write down prayer request and what your reading and what your learning. (a practice I struggle with)
• use a concordance or biblegateway.com or blueletterbible.org to search out words like "but God"  "meditate"  "straight paths"  "obedience"  "wife"  
• study Matthew 6:19-13 and learn more about "how" to pray - search out other prayers in the Bible. (we are currently doing this as a family about once a week) 
• Read or retell Bible stories to kids - be sure to have your Bible open.
• Remember the Bible is truth - nothing this world dreams up compares.
• If you fall off the horse, GET UP! and get back on. (meaning - if you try to have a personal and/or family devotional time each day and you just don't - try, try again). Don't give up.

And I'm only a phone call away if ya need me.

The Prodigal Daughter by Charlie Mackesy